RecalibratingPosted: January 26, 2010
>Saturday, for me, was one of those days when I don’t have patience for anything. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me–the customers were perfectly tolerable, the weather was bright and unseasonably warmish, the day went by without incident. But somewhere, my molecules were out of order, shifted perhaps. Uncertain. This feeling has continued through the days, and I’ve decided that the only way to shake it is to clean out the closets. Literally. Or maybe figuratively. Both?
Jennifer said today on the phone, “That sounds awful, reliving every past moment with every old piece of clothing.” But I feel the opposite. It frees me. I feel released from the promise to hold that memory forever. I feel released from the need to carry around the object that contains the history. The old, the unwanted, the style-less–notice that I didn’t say unfashionable, and note the difference–will go either to the Salvation Army, or to the Greenmarket’s textile recycling program.
–The Tommy Hilfiger plaid button-down that I wore every other day when Meg and I went to London. I wore it underneath the hand-altered sweater that Becky made for me when she was at RISD, which I am keeping.
–The woven white Oxford that I wore to Meg’s memorial service.
–The Club Monaco striped thing which I wore only once, to a few compliments, I think, but which now strikes me as unlovable.
–The handmade, very expensive shirt that I wore to Amanda’s wedding dinner. It was always too big for me, and looked a bit sloppy, but back then I didn’t know better.
–Shorts, shorts and shorts.
–The REI anorak that I wore every day in Iceland. It was lost for a few years, living inside an old coat that I never wear–like Jack Twist’s shirt was folded inside Ennis Del Mar’s. It might find a new life.
–The English Laundry shirt from a few years ago, before they went all too-too. Anybody have solutions to a little yellow around the collar? Bodies betray us, there, I said it.
–The train conductor’s cap which was handed down to NYU by the costume department of the musical “The Capeman.” Andrea thought I should have it, and I still do.
–The fabulous vintage Wrangler shirt bought from eBay for only $5.00, but which I can barely fit into now. Create a new, thinner you? Or accept the you that is now?
–The insane Edwardian overcoat, which fits me beautifully, but, like, can I work it?
–Some AMOK costumes that I’ve worn over the years. They are flawless, singular pieces. But do I need one more bit of frippery?
Next week, the chest of drawers…..